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24 Aug 2005 My master plan, or lack of

[Rant] It's been a while since I've done a good rant. In fact this could article could be argued that it is not a proper rant, because it is too personal. I'm still going to talk about it anyway. Maybe I should introduce a new section called "Whining". Hopefully you'll get something good out of it.

I feel like I'm in a bit of a rut. Despite having a job that pays money it's barely enough. I'm having trouble leading a comfortable lifestyle. Especially with all the sudden costs that pop up, like getting the car fixed. And the thing is I don't know what I am going to do next.

I was talking to my friend about this subject. Actually he brought it up himself. Mainly because he hates his job with a passion (being a sort of web developer for a government funded company) and is desperately trying to find a career for himself. Or more like he want to work with computer generated models, but the only main way of doing that is to get into computer games, which is something he'd rather not do. The point is he feels that I need an overall goal in life, a plan that will last for 5-10 year. One question that comes up often is "What are you going to do next?" The thing is I don't know.

And it's starting to get to me. I'm going to a job that has lost its appeal. I don't know what happened. Maybe the atmosphere of the place is less jolly than I initially thought, maybe there's hardly any challenging work to do, maybe I'm sick and tired of doing "PowerPoint style" flash animations for clients. I feel like I want to break away and do something new. But I can't do that surely? I not been there for two months yet, I lasted much longer in my old job in terms of enjoyment. I wouldn't mind a holiday abroad, I've not done that in years. Trouble is I only got one place on my mind that I would like to visit, and the tickets cost about £700 return! Damn those sexy people living abroad. ^_^;;

But I digress.

For a time I was happy just coasting through life doing, what I considered, simple tasks that I can do to get me by with a dash of challenges. I always thought about now and in a few months, rather than thinking about where I see myself in a few years. But right now it's not enough. The only basic goal I have in life is:



And... and...

Ah hell, it's taken me three evenings to write this shit out. I kinda lost momentum on the point I was trying to make. It was something along the lines of "Find a better job, find more jobs, do another animation, earn more money, have sex, etc etc" but the moment is gone now. It all ruined! Don't look at me!!!

Posted at: 23:47 PM

Your Thoughts

RandomGregsFace said on Thursday 25th of August 2005 at 12:28:38 PM

Gravatar hmm... me been thinking about this a lot, and I can think of some alternative lifestyles to brighten up the drudgery of ordinary life.

(i) Join the underground war against the illuminarti and fight american imperialisium ... I've go it all planned out ... first we fake our deaths in a car crash.. then we set up a base of operations in the sewers (our own turtle layer). (ii) Then we hack the CIA and sell data to NorthKorea (this will require a broadbandline). (iii) then once we have enough money, arms (thank you russian mafia) and bodies (recruiting - u get a free pen and keyring) .... we can begin to build our empire and bring order ... a new age ... where teh face of grax adorns every building, bilboard & tv screen. And the children will sing songs to make the great leader happy...

Or you could just buy a newspaper and look for a new job.

MIA said on Friday 26th of August 2005 at 04:32:31 PM

Gravatar Aww, I'm sorry you feel like you're stuck in a rut. :( Maybe a holiday *would* be a good idea. Just whack it on your credit card or something and forget about it till later! ;) Where is this special place you're looking to go?

GRAX said on Friday 26th of August 2005 at 06:22:26 PM

Gravatar I was thinking of going to Argentina. I have a friend who lives there and I would like to visit her. I'd have a free place to stay and everything. Trouble is the plane ticket is expensive. And my credit card is already quite full from my car "repairs". Stupid brakes...

Lu said on Monday 29th of August 2005 at 05:35:37 PM

Gravatar Oh....it`s been ages since I last visited your site, little Ricardito. I am very happy to know you really want to visit me!!! (in case that friend from Argentina is me...)jeje. I also want you to come, you know about this, I think it`s what we call here "materia pendiente" (I am sure you are already opening the free translator!jaja). Ok....what else??? Te quiero muchísimo, you are a great person and I know you will find that special thing that will make you happy, could be a job or whatever!. Besitos!!!
LU

BusinessTrog said on Wednesday 31st of August 2005 at 02:07:30 PM

Gravatar I'll give ya £700 Mr Brush ... though remember that there is no such thing as a free lunch, in otherwords I'll have a £700 stake in yo ass.

I'm not fussy, all I ask is one of your female offspring on the day she comes of age. I'll be good to her, feed her up.

I got the contracts ready for you to sign. If you never have any daughters you'll never have to payup. Now thats the best god damn deal you're ever gonna get. Be warned though you can't decieve me, my minions will find any illegitimate offspring, no matter where you hide em. YOU ARE MINE.. come on .. take it ... lets see "Trip to Argentina / Pimping Daughter .... NO TRIP / Uncorrupted Daughter" .. hmm whats it gonna be HUH.. WHATS IT GONNA BE???????????

Signed: PissedOffJapsEYE (Mrs)

RAZII JINX said on Wednesday 31st of August 2005 at 04:11:14 PM

Gravatar Man, I know exactly how you feel. I'm always stuck at a dead-end job trying to make ends meet and it's always something completely away from what I want to be doing. I really hate it.
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If careers were a bullseye; I've landed miles off target. I know I can do better, I really can. =\

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I'm sure you can too. Just whore yourself out, really (Your skills you perv. XD) That might work. Maybe someone will see your potential and help start your way.

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