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12 Dec 2005 The mystery girl

[Dream] Now I wanted to write some other things, I've got a couple of reviews and a rant to get off my chest. But I had a dream yesterday and I wanted to keep a record of it.

There was a girl.

She was shorter than me and she had dark hair, to about shoulder length, maybe shorter. I don't remember what her face looked like, but I remember her being beautiful. I remember feeling that I knew her already, I think, but I don't remember who. She was really fun to hang around and I felt happy being around her. She was perfect.

We were at some beach/holiday place like Brighton and she had her friend with her, or maybe it was my friend. We were just hanging out, seeing places, and generally having fun. And the perfect girl and I became close. Like a couple. I was so happy being with her. I loved every moment we had. For a time life was good.

Then a week passed.

Out of nowhere a girl from my past came into the scene. Her name is Kelly. She was a girl I knew from secondary school and I use to fancy her (that's "have a crush on her" for all those who are not in the know for british lingo). She is not that pretty looking and she was NOTHING compared to the perfect girl. But I still fancied Kelly. I wanted Kelly, not for the same reasons I wanted Perfect Girl, this was simple lust. I wanted to try and make my secondary school crush become reality. So I left Perfect Girl. Just got up and walk out on her, without even saying goodbye to her.

I pursued Kelly, hanging around her like a stray dog looking for scraps of affection from her. I was obsessed with her. But Kelly did not feel the same way. She lead me on but she was not interested in me. She took me to see her do a rehearsal for a play she was going to perform, but she gave no affection, short of holding my hand for a moment. I felt frustrated and annoyed with myself. I was not getting anything from Kelly, my old crush, and I had thrown away the one thing that made me happy, all for a stupid impulse lust thing.

Then I woke up.

Now normally I would just look the dream up in a dream dictionary and be done with it. But not this time. I think this dream was no simple dream; I think it was a glimpse into what will happen. I saw what will happen to me. I know this sounds crazy and stupid, but I thought about this and I remembered times where I had dreams and they came true in a way.

The first time was when I was staying round a friends house with some friends. I was with a guy friend (whom I'm calling A) and a lady friend (whom I'm calling B). We were all sleeping in B's room after a night of clubbing. I woke up stupid early and fell back to sleep. And I basically dreamt that I woke up in her room like any other day, but something weird happens. Like for example I woke up and went to use her shower, which was in a shed, and the shower was huge, and everyone could see me, and I flooded the shower somehow. The thing is I kept trying to wake myself up but I couldn't. I woke up in a different situation. I couldn't wake up. It was like some sort of Groundhog Day/timeloop thing going on. In one of those moments that I 'awoke' I saw that A and B were together like a couple. In fact they WERE a couple in the dream. And they both said that B just got pregnant, like it was no big deal. When I woke up for real I told them this and they just looked at me funny, as they usually do when I tell them a dream. A month or two later I went to B's house warming party, A was there. And that's when I found out that A and B were actually seeing each other. They were going out with each other. I dreamt it and it happened! Sort of.

Another time, months ago from today, I was at home in bed and I woke up early for some reason even though I didn't need to be, so I feel back asleep. I started to dream. I don't remember all of it, but I remember one scene. I was with a girl and I knew exactly who she was. We were close in my dream. She and I were curled up on a big comfy sofa with a big blanket keep us both snug. We shared kisses and tender moments. I felt really happy. It felt right. I woke up shortly afterwards. A few months later I was with this said-girl on her sofa and we were close and we did kiss and I loved it. In almost the exact same way as my dream.

Now I'm willing to say that those were all coincidences and that this new dream is nothing important. But I don't think they were coincidences. I think that my dreams did come true to a degree. I think this new dream I had is a warning to me no to do something stupid. Or maybe not.

The thing is I'm bothered because I don't know who the perfect girl is. I've tried really hard to remember but I can't. I know who I want it to be, but I can't be sure.

Who was that girl?

Posted at: 2:23 AM

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