The Grax Domain

31 Dec 2005 ... In with the new

It's nearly all over. The end of 2005 is nigh. The year 2006 is upon us whether we're ready for it or not. I don't exactly have an action-packed New Years Eve Event planned this year. Things kinda fell apart at the end when some people who I really wanted to meet pulled out at the last minute with their own plans. But it's cool, still gonna go to a gathering with some friends so it's all good. I feel like now's a good time to reflect on my year.

This is the point where I rant on about my year and it's purely for me. You can go somewhere else if this doesn't float your boat in any way.

I guess the one thing that I should be asking myself is that am I happy with myself? Am I happy with the way that this year has panned out? I could look at all the things that has happened in 2005. I've attended a friend's Stag weekend, been to two wedding-type events, been in a (short) relationship earlier in the year, been made redundant from my job halfway through the year but found a new, better job a month afterwards, moved to a new town and found out there are worse places in the world to live cos now I'm stuck in one of them, got my tarot read and it said that overall the next year is looking good for me, and towards the end of the year I took a big chance and when to Argentina for holiday to visit a girl that I met online. That's my proudest achievement this year.

So that's my year, with it's series of ups and downs. Am I happy with how it turned out? Yes I am happy with how it turned out. I'm a better person overall because of it. Am I happy...?

Mostly... but there's plenty of room for improvements.

That's the thing I'm most looking forward to in 2006. Considering the past couple of months I feel that I actually have decent goals to achieve. Not crappy goals like loosing weight and getting fitter (but I'm gonna do that, just like the millions of fat bastards in the world) but big goals based on what I really want. And I know that I can do it! It's in the cards! I've even made simple plans to follow. Trouble is it's going to be a long road to achieve these goals, something that won't happen till the end of 2006. I can't wait that long. I want it now!!

I found a quote on a friend's site and it made me smile so much that I'm going to steal it. Full credit for the man at harlandos7. He says:

"all i say is find that one thing that makes u smile, the one thing that makes u wanna get out there and do it and grab that oppertunity, cause its not always gonna b around."

2006? Bring it.

Happy New Year everybody.

31 Dec 2005 I'VE HAD IT UP TO HERE WITH THE LIKES OF YOU PEOPLE!!!

That's it, I've had it!! I'm sick and tired of all those stupid adverts popping up in my guestbook. Porn, fake watches, loans, porn, casino, mobiles, porn, porn, porn! The list goes on. Every other day I had to clean out half a dozen of these 'entries'. Trying to ruin my good name with misplaced adverts; how dare they!

So I've had to add a little image code thingy to the guestbook sign-in page that you need to fill in before you can submit. I'm sorry to the honest people in the world, but they made me do it.

But I've got plans for those people who want to whore out my Grax Domain for their cheap gains. Oh they'll pay. They'll all pay....

*evil cackle*

I win.... ^_^

Also while I was at it I've also did some code cleaning to my site. You probably won't notice anything too unusual or new, it's just so it's all tidier. If you spot any odd goings on let me know.

24 Dec 2005 T'was the night before Christmas...

It's Christmas Eve and I'm fully stocked with my gifts to people for the year. And I got EVERYBODY'S gift on Christmas Eve. And it was relatively hassle free. Who says shopping on Christmas Eve was a nightmare? :-P

Merry Christmas everybody.

^_^

17 Dec 2005 Open Waters Review

There are times where I don't like my job as a reviewer. It's the times where it becomes a chore to expose myself to the boring medium that I think "Why do I bother?" That was one of the many negative feelings I had when I watching Open Waters, along with "This is crap" and "Why the hell is that shot in the movie?? This scene does nothing for the movie". A movie that tried to capture the thriller feel of The Blair Witch Project but fails to do so.

So here's the full story; a couple go on holiday for an open water scuba diving experience, they get left behind due to a stupid error in head counting by the staff, they float around... float around some more.... have pointless arguments... flaot some more........ Oh yeah they get stung by jellyfish and get nibbled at by fish.... float some more.... vomit and piss themselves... float... gets dark.... man gets eaten by sharks.... women gives up and dies.... the end.... So nothing really happens.

The whole thing is boring to watch and you just don't care for the characters. Even at the end with all the (two) deaths you couldn't care less about the characters. I even think the film was padding out with pointless shots at random things because they just didn't have enough tape material. "Oooh I know, lets film that seagull for a minute, that'll buy us some time".

I even got bored writing this review! While I was writing this I got bored so I watched a bit of The House of the Dead movie and then proceeded to punish myself with a barbed whip.

In short, don't waste your money watching this movie. You'll demand your money and your 80 minutes of your life back from the video rental store.

GRAX RATING: 0/5

12 Dec 2005 The mystery girl

Now I wanted to write some other things, I've got a couple of reviews and a rant to get off my chest. But I had a dream yesterday and I wanted to keep a record of it.

There was a girl.

She was shorter than me and she had dark hair, to about shoulder length, maybe shorter. I don't remember what her face looked like, but I remember her being beautiful. I remember feeling that I knew her already, I think, but I don't remember who. She was really fun to hang around and I felt happy being around her. She was perfect.

We were at some beach/holiday place like Brighton and she had her friend with her, or maybe it was my friend. We were just hanging out, seeing places, and generally having fun. And the perfect girl and I became close. Like a couple. I was so happy being with her. I loved every moment we had. For a time life was good.

Then a week passed.

Out of nowhere a girl from my past came into the scene. Her name is Kelly. She was a girl I knew from secondary school and I use to fancy her (that's "have a crush on her" for all those who are not in the know for british lingo). She is not that pretty looking and she was NOTHING compared to the perfect girl. But I still fancied Kelly. I wanted Kelly, not for the same reasons I wanted Perfect Girl, this was simple lust. I wanted to try and make my secondary school crush become reality. So I left Perfect Girl. Just got up and walk out on her, without even saying goodbye to her.

I pursued Kelly, hanging around her like a stray dog looking for scraps of affection from her. I was obsessed with her. But Kelly did not feel the same way. She lead me on but she was not interested in me. She took me to see her do a rehearsal for a play she was going to perform, but she gave no affection, short of holding my hand for a moment. I felt frustrated and annoyed with myself. I was not getting anything from Kelly, my old crush, and I had thrown away the one thing that made me happy, all for a stupid impulse lust thing.

Then I woke up.

Now normally I would just look the dream up in a dream dictionary and be done with it. But not this time. I think this dream was no simple dream; I think it was a glimpse into what will happen. I saw what will happen to me. I know this sounds crazy and stupid, but I thought about this and I remembered times where I had dreams and they came true in a way.

The first time was when I was staying round a friends house with some friends. I was with a guy friend (whom I'm calling A) and a lady friend (whom I'm calling B). We were all sleeping in B's room after a night of clubbing. I woke up stupid early and fell back to sleep. And I basically dreamt that I woke up in her room like any other day, but something weird happens. Like for example I woke up and went to use her shower, which was in a shed, and the shower was huge, and everyone could see me, and I flooded the shower somehow. The thing is I kept trying to wake myself up but I couldn't. I woke up in a different situation. I couldn't wake up. It was like some sort of Groundhog Day/timeloop thing going on. In one of those moments that I 'awoke' I saw that A and B were together like a couple. In fact they WERE a couple in the dream. And they both said that B just got pregnant, like it was no big deal. When I woke up for real I told them this and they just looked at me funny, as they usually do when I tell them a dream. A month or two later I went to B's house warming party, A was there. And that's when I found out that A and B were actually seeing each other. They were going out with each other. I dreamt it and it happened! Sort of.

Another time, months ago from today, I was at home in bed and I woke up early for some reason even though I didn't need to be, so I feel back asleep. I started to dream. I don't remember all of it, but I remember one scene. I was with a girl and I knew exactly who she was. We were close in my dream. She and I were curled up on a big comfy sofa with a big blanket keep us both snug. We shared kisses and tender moments. I felt really happy. It felt right. I woke up shortly afterwards. A few months later I was with this said-girl on her sofa and we were close and we did kiss and I loved it. In almost the exact same way as my dream.

Now I'm willing to say that those were all coincidences and that this new dream is nothing important. But I don't think they were coincidences. I think that my dreams did come true to a degree. I think this new dream I had is a warning to me no to do something stupid. Or maybe not.

The thing is I'm bothered because I don't know who the perfect girl is. I've tried really hard to remember but I can't. I know who I want it to be, but I can't be sure.

Who was that girl?

2 Dec 2005 Mystery Package: The plot thickens

So you know in my entry I received a book through the post, and I still don't know who gave it to me. But I'm reading it now and I'm a little surprized on how good it is. There hardly any description about the football matches themselves, it's all character building. And it mentions the Great Cthulhu, which was a nice surprize.

But the thing that caught me off guard was one of the extra characters in the book. I'm about halfway through it and, without revealing anything about the plot, one of the characters has my name! Even the surname was exactly the same! I had to re-read the chapter again to make sure I wasn't seeing things, but it was there in black and white. I'm in the book.

Now is this an amazing coincidence? Or is it more than that? Did the mystery person who sent me the book KNEW about the character with my name, and they just HAD to send the book to me? Is this a sign of some sort....? We may never know.

I'll write a review about Knees Up Mother Earth when I finish reading it.