The Grax Domain

25 Jul 2005 A dream about one special stag

I had a dream last night and I'm a little disturbed by it. It completely different to some of the dreams I've had in the past. I figured that I would write this down because it one that I probably shouldn't forget. I've already forgotten a lot of the minor details in the dream, but not the main details...

Well there's this guy in my dream. It's not me... but I think it might be me, I'm not sure. He was in some woodland area with trees surrounding him. Then a stag appears from nowhere standing tall and proud with huge antlers. You could feel the stag's aura of great strength and nobility. I... the guy looks upon it in awe. Then something odd begins to happen to the stag. It shifts into a biped form. It still has its animal head, hooves and fur everywhere, but it's a biped with hands. Then its aura becomes a lot more feminine and sexual but it's still male. It then sees the guy and starts to tempt me towards himself. The guy is disgusted and a little frightened. And yet I.... he moves towards the stag unable to resist. Then the guy and the stag... begin to.... begin to... lets just say there's some furry hentai action going on. Luckily I don't see any details clearly, I am just aware that it is happening. And I am disgusted with myself, and yet it feels... good... right. Baring in mind that it's man on man-beast action and I am both straight and SO not into that bestiality stuff. After the deed I.. the guy had mixed feeling of guilt and a sexual pleasure being fulfilled. Then comes the next part of the dream.

The stag and the guy decide to get married! In the back of the guys mind he is cursing himself in committing such a sin that is gay bestiality. But overall he is ecstatic over the marriage. This is where my memory is fuzzy. What happens next is the Stag and guy get married, everyone they know is there, and then they all decide to play American Football and a football pitch rises from the ground (you know, as you do). The during the game a fat lady walks up to the stag, still into biped form with huge spiky antlers, they both stare at each other with hate, and then the fat lady began to snap off bits of the stag's antlers. Not to completely snap it all off and destroy, but almost to prune it.

And then I wake up.... *shudder*

What say you Dream Moods?

Stag

To see a stag in your dream, represents grace and agility. You will elevate to a position of much status. You will feel spiritually uplifted.

Homosexual

To dream that you are homosexual (but you are not in your waking life), represents a union with aspects of yourself. It is symbolic of self-love, self-acceptance, and compassion. If, in your dream, you are not comfortable with homosexuality, then it suggests some fears/anxieties about your masculinity (if you are male) and femininity (if you are female). You may be experiencing some insecurity in your relations with the opposite sex.

Wedding

To see a wedding in your dream, symbolizes a new beginning or transition in your current life. Dreams involving weddings are generally negative and highlight some anxiety or fear. It often refers to feelings of bitterness, sorrow, or death. Alternatively, wedding dreams reflect your issues about commitment and independence...

...To dream that you are planning your own wedding to someone you never met, is a metaphor symbolizing the union of your masculine and feminine side. It represents a transitional phase where you are seeking some sort of balance between your aggressive side and emotional side.

Football

To dream that you are watching or playing football, signifies that you will have great satisfaction in your work and your goals will be achieved as you progress through your life.

To dream that you are on a football field, represents competition and showing off. There is a lack of cooperation in some area of your life.

Antlers

To see antlers in your dream, is representative of masculine sexuality, male aggression and assertiveness. It may also be symbolic of a trophy.

Woman

To see a woman in your dream, represents nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love. It refers to your own female aspects or may also represent your mother. Alternatively, it may indicate temptation and guilt...

Fat

...To dream that others are fat, signifies prosperity.


Yeeessshh! So, my first analysis would be that I'm having some personal issues right about now possibly about my masculinity. But I feel fine.

I'm open to suggestion, insults, and anything else you fine people has to say.

12 Jul 2005 Live from Andover...

It's about time I said something. But what to say? Where to begin?

To start off with my new job and home. So far it's pretty good. They've got me making stuff in Flash, which is always good practice. The people I work with are all pretty cool too. I've managed to settle in and mingle in with the groups there. They've each got a 'minor quirk' but who hasn't to be honest. As for the small town of Andover it's nice.... but it's dull! There's not a whole lot going for it. Sure there's about a dozen pubs, a whole nightclub, apparantly, but I've not really made any friends here yet and I'm not the sort of person that goes out on his own. Call me a coward if you must. And Andover is tiny! I bet if you were to come here you could figure out which house I live in. At least it's a short walk to work.

I got an internet connect at home. Which is nice. And to celebrate, I've finally made some skins for this site. That's right, now you can change the look of this very site, with the magic that is CSS (just like I promised, told you). Choose from a list in the top left corner of the screen. So far there's only two other skins to choose from, and one of those could be argued as being rather "homo-erotic". Why no explore the site with the new skin on. It doesn't effect every part of the Grax Domain, so you'll not see any changes in places like the Magic 8 Ball or The Art of Grax. Comment and stuff are always welcomed. I've got a few more skin designs in my head so there'll be more coming sooner or later.

London Underground Bombing. 7/7/05. Hmm... Much Badness. My heart goes out to those who were effected by it. I wouldn't mind saying more, but I'll save that as a seperate rant for another day.